A note to self....

The year now is 2016 yet you cringe on hearing about 5 years ago.
You were at your worst, I get that, I really do... but you have to stop being so hard on yourself.
You were a naive, young girl who kept believing she was the strongest ever. No one ever told you, you did not have to walk around hiding behind high walls.
Now, you are not healing or rather you are not allowing yourself  to heal. You are carrying the pain, the guilt and the grief.
Let it go...the only three words you need to hear...

Thirst and hunger

“Something about you that drives me crazy… that awakens some sort of thirst-hunger for you…”

You, the artist, are completely messed up, f up in your head. Through your eyes, I can almost see my destruction but yet I can't move away…can't look away.

Now you sit there infront of me smiling, that innocent and smooth smile, at my helplessness. How did I get here? How did we get here? 

“Yes..” all he waited for was a “yes”. He waited for years and years. But he stayed. Never gave me up.

Yet, a moment with you feels enough to fill my lifetime longing- the emptiness. But how can I forget his patience and his loyalty and his love? 

Maybe you and I aren't so different… both ruthless… both careless…both heartless.

A soft graze across my cheek, I yearn for more but you know that. 

A slow brush across my lips with your thin cold fingers. I close my eyes as you lean forward, towards my lips, but I feel the words “open your eyes” on my skin. Like a child, I open my eyes and gaze into your soul… I don't see you, ofcourse not.. I see myself, cornered and caged. Something clicks at that moment, I grab your face, lock my fingers behind your hair and pull you in…

I believe we meet again…

Hair Food - Davines Oi

Finding the right products for your hair is one of the hardest things ever!? Don't you agree ladies?

Like everyone else, I've tried too many of "parabens and sulphate free" shampoos and conditioner, in order to maintain a healthy, clean and breathable scalp, but so many of them failed my hair and I :"(

Though for me, thanks to my saviour of a friend, Jayde the hairdresser, I found the perfect products which are totally working miracles on my hair and scalp!? I wish I could attach a sample of my hair to prove this. My hair is just simply soft like candy floss and smells amazing!!! Ladies, my hair foods- Davines Shampoo(£15) and Davines Oi conditioner(£16)

Davines Oi Shampoo- " Davines OI Shampoo gives hair extraordinary softness, gloss and natural body. Formulated with Roucou oil with strong anti-oxidant action, it prevents hair ageing. Team with other products in the OI series for hair that screams perfection."*

Davines Oi Conditioner- "when rushed for time and the task of drying your hair seems like such a bore, Davines OI Conditioner is here to rescue us. It works to accelerate the drying process and protects hair’s structure from damage caused by heat styling. By definition this is a tub that’s straight from hair heaven."*

My hair/scalp concerns:

Dried and damaged hair- one month of regular uses big improvements ✔

Oversensitive scalp, harsh products causes me spots and lumps( scary I know!) - despite many products claim to be parabens free for e.g. my scalp didn't respond well to Lush bars- no sign of spots or any lumps infact my scalp stays clean no irritations!!✔

Hair fall out - heavy conditioners lingers and weighs down my hair which causes me crazy-hair-fall-out!  The Davines conditioner is just perfect no side effects! It makes my hair crazy soft and smells A-MAZING! The best part with the conditioner is, because I'm so lazy in drying my long-nearly-reaching-my-hips-hair,
it dries 2x as fast as before!!✔

These products are 9/10. They would be a 10/10 but the dispensing isn't as easy a normal shampoo bottle however I am 200% happy with them. I'd buy them even if they came in a water bottle.  

Where to buy:
Shampoo- http://www.blowltd.com/haircare/davines-oi-shampoo-280ml

Conditioner- http://www.blowltd.com/haircare/davines-oi-conditioner-250ml

Who Is Your Perfect Match?

Are you hitting the bull-eye? Or are you picking up your clothes and heels off the floor while sneaking out the back door before he wakes up?

Disclaimer-This is just for fun purposes- nothing to be taken seriously.

As for the woman species, we are all different individuals. God or the universe decided to create us women with more than 50% of complicity almost like a quest to be resolved by one special knight. According my background knowledge and based on my group of girlfriends; I have picked out three specific types of girls and what kind of guy each of you need to keep an eye for?

'Qute' Quiet Girls

Now ladies, there are nothing wrong with being the Quiet Ones- this is starting to sound quite scary no? Haha. This means you are more on the observant side, which means men should be more careful and alarmed with you. You all know what I mean by 'observant'- every little and small details will be picked up for e.g the non verbal communication: Body Language (this is BIG)- not that type of "big" you are thinking of, naughty! As the quote goes "silent but deadly"- haha I'm sure it is totally appropriate to quote this and it fit the situation perfectly.

Now, the type of guy that you would want to be with is The One who is not always in your face with their big gob- always talking and talking and talking or chewing- but you also definitely do not want a quiet one. Major Clash. Your Guy would be one who picks up well on instincts more than just vibes and signals. He would be understanding of how you are on the inside, not always pushing the buttons but also knows how to get you to break the silence at the right times and take to the highest heights something new each time. *winks* 

Miss-Know-It-All  

Right 'Missy', straight up girl you do not have time for 'timewasters'. A good, honest and straightforward man is that you have to have. "Ain't nobody got time" to set out gameboards and roll the dices. Cut the Crap. "I own the game" This is your thought right now, yes? As a miss-know-it-all, you want straightforward answers with no double meanings. For e.g when you ask your 'perfect match': "where would you like to eat tonight babe?" his answer needs to be, without hesitation, "that new italian restaurant that just opened last month, I've read good reviews and booked us a table at 8". No fuss. A man who likes to take the burden off your shoulders unexpectedly. Let's face it, when deciding where to dine can be tricky and very time consuming despite knowing quite a lot about pretty much everything, it is nice for someone else to take control and surprises you as well as matching up to you.

'Angelica' Chica

Girl, get ready to bring on the battle "good vs bad". As much you want to deny it, you know you like a full on "bad boy". The saying: "opposites attracts"- haha. One who can take you to cloud nine where you really belong then suddenly grabs your hands, pulls you closer and jumps off while kissing you. The adrenaline rush-oh yeah. Though, with that being said, you have to have a "bad boy" residing in an actual man. This is the real world, you can't always be on cloud nine. He has to be able to put in a balanced amount of efforts in the relationship. No slackers, No prison visits, No good-for-nothing is needed for you Chica.

If I have missed out on the types of girls or I may have mismatched, leave a comment below and let me know. Thanks for reading, until next time... Shameema

Beauties On My Canvas

Apart from being a little adventurous writer, I ADORE make-up…from the age of five, I have been sneaking away red lipsticks (still my up-to-day favourite) from my aunts and mum’s make up kit and using that as blush and lipstick-Duo skills.Since, I’ve grown up with fashion related careers women; surprisingly, I have not yet made a fashion blog -hmm not a bad idea. I have been inspired by my fellow friend and gorgeous blogger Sanah Khan (Iblograndomness.blogspot.com) to share my everyday make-up essentials, which I use on my canvas in other words -my face haha.

Here’s a not-so-small wheel of my everyday make up.

I start with using fresh Aloe Vera plant gel direct on my skin as my moisturiser followed by this Clinique- Super City Block spf 40 oil-free(oily face chica). I used a spf every day in the summer while the sun is out as my skin reacts negatively to the sun rays and develops hyperpigmentation but this works so damn good as a PRIMER! I skip it on nights out and evenings because of the picture taking and flash, flash, flash.

I have such an awkward skin tone, which I absolutely love by the way, but when it comes to finding my right shade it is almost impossible without Mac’s products. After using mac studio fix liquid from the age of 15 to 17, I switched to Mac Sculpt NC44. Despite having an oily face, I found Sculpt suits my skin tone and texture best, does not make my face all cakey and closest shade. Let’s not forget the all-time favourite- Mac pro long concealer NC 45/NC42 (four years and counting) I have moved around mac sculpt concealer but I don’t like the creamy feeling especially around the fine line near the eyes- ergh not good!

I’m not an expert when it comes to contouring, but I like highlighting my under eyes and top of my cheekbones. For this, I used Artist of Makeup Flawless Coverage No.45, works like a magic eraser!

To set my make up, I use the Ben NYE Banana powder mainly under my eyes and under my cheek bones.

This is my absolute favourite. ELF- contouring blush and bronzer. It is perfect for my skin tone, unfortunately not available in London yet. I picked this up when I was in wales and I fell in love with the store!

“eyes are the window to the soul”- I love to keep it as simple as I can. I use the Anastasia Brow Wiz in brunette lightly just to fill any spaces as I have quite natural, thick and dark brows already. Mascara, Mascara, mascara… this is an important one! I have been a die-hard fan of telescopic L’Oreal mascara since the age of 14, I loved the long and no clumps lashes sadly since I started to discover l’oreals animal cruelties (poor little bunnies) I could not even touch anymore of their products. Since westfield opened up a Kiko store- Oh Em Gee! Once I have tried their Ultra Tech Mascara, I have never used any other mascaras. They have very similar results as L’oreal telescopic, their brushes are absolutely lush! Waterline- I am not a fan of using black eyeliner, makes my eyes look way too small and I like the window to my soul to be open- haha! Therefore, I use the Rimmel Nude waterproof eyeliner for the bigger eyes effects followed by my body shop -quad brown smokey eye palette under the bottom lash line. 

                                       

Top bay, top lifts and top goals

25/08/14

Bank holiday weekend has to mean something massive for us Britons right? Well, yes of course but most importantly us Londoners do not waste a second of free time to let loose nor do we miss any opportunities to go nuts. It’s just something in the London water that hypnotises us into this way of living- haha. You must try it to believe it!

Though- please take a pause for this and feel our pain- our London weather is fashionably too sophisticated to allow us to enjoy the weekend bender or any other days off with some good old bright sun, however with that being said despite it rained and rained… no Londoner backed down ( I speak for the ones with the real London enthusiasm) That is right, London weather “we conquer all”- this is just one of the mind-sets you obtain once you dive into the London living.

On one side of London, Notting hill carnival was ON (this only meant “get your carnival fever on, you eager beavers”) and on the other side, there were the four of us again- Saba, sheetal, Mehraj and I. Adventureswithusgirls…Top Golf

Now, let me put forward a little personal biography relating to this adventure, I have never ever touched a real golf club in my life let alone actually hold one. There are two exceptions which I will leave to you to decide whether it can be counted or not; Around some x years ago(I can’t remember honestly-memory of a goldfish) my dear father had gifted my older sister and I a plastic set of golf clubs alongside some golf balls but then again like little moguls we were, we ended up sabotaging each other’s faces- at this point I was unquestionably convinced this is how real golf goes down- oh yeah but my father on the other hand made sure to keep all weapons-like objects out of sight. For him, it was lesson learnt.

The second near-misfortune-missed-my-death-bed time, I had decided to get active on the Nintendo Wii by playing golf- this is why I was warned being active brings no good! I am sure by now you might have an inkling of how things went down; like a pro I swung that remote( I swear it was securely attached to my wrists) in slow motion it was shooting right at the brand new 48” tv, but thank the lord for my fast reflex and I caught that “supposedly golf club”. Bear in mind, my family do not believe in insuring brand new household appliances, I would have actually died. Dead. This concludes why I would like to take it as my first time to play some golf.

Once we arrived at Top Golf, Chigwell, there was two hours of waiting line, TWO hours and this was for the top bay, the best bay of course. As the world is aware of the "pickiness" of women, Mehraj, who is a top golf regular, suggested we only wait on the top bays and let me mention this now my girl did not disappoint, she knew what she was talking about. After those long two hours of waiting, which actually they should not be described as long hours, because us, four girls ,together again is a simply-crazy-out-of-control tornado hitting the place. Golf clubs, golf balls, golf time girls…

A day filled with laughter, competitiveness, love, embarrassments, cuties, flop golfs and most importantly adventurously fun.

Until the next adventure... 

Don't forget to comment and share your memories with your bunch of crazies!

Shameema 

An usual train journey

London to Bath Spa

“Would you rather travel back to 100 years in the past or 100 years into the future?” I breathlessly popped out this question to the group,while settling down in our allocated and reserved seats, on the not-so-packed train.

The girls and I were setting off on a day trip to Bath Spa, as the word “spa” is attached to Bath it is obvious why we are going, for a relaxing time out of the city life to enjoy the perks of the Spa there.

Now back to the question, “would you rather…” unfortunately, despite my specific instructions of a group seating to the booking officer, we are scattered around the carriage but we managed to form some sort of a circle. As the rule always follow “the one on the left to the dealer”( I know it is the card game rule but it can be applied), this meant the first one up was Mehraj, this is the girl who is a total nutter, short-cut-bob hair style always up for anything. As she concluded why her choice of whether it will be back to the past or to the future, the next one on her left was Sheetal, this one is the loving, caring and all smiles- haha- no but seriously she has the looks (let me emphasise on only“looks”) of an innocent angelic little girl. Indeed,  she was eager to shoot away into the future. Right, the third one up was Jade- our model chica, the perfect tall, slim build with short blonde hair. She is the extremely passionate one! The drive to chase her passions will inspire you instantly. The fourth one up was, Saba, sometimes-I’m-so-confused-leave-me-alone girl. She will only pay attention to the last part of the conversations and picks up the wrong details of it, but with that being said, she is sort of the class-clown in the group-haha, a very beautiful one though!

Last but not least, I had to answer my own question; I chose 100 years in the past, as I cannot imagine peeking through the future as I just love surprises, whatever life throws, I am ever-so-ready(bulks up, closes up the masks and hold on tightly to the baseball bat)

Throughout this two and a half hours journey from London to Bath Spa, which seemed so short almost not enough for our never ending conversations, we had upset the whole coach and managed to get on their to kill list. Can you just imagine the faces of our fellow passengers? I was pretty sure they needed the spa break more than us after that journey with us.

At last, we had arrived at our destination, as soon as we set foot on the station. We each pulled out our devices and then it kicked off with the picture taking, selfies and snapchat videos. By the time, we all calmed down and finished off with all the social medias- please note we were supposedly to be on a break from the chaotic city- we took a look around the station. To our surprise the station, which was once filled with tourists like ourselves, was now empty. Time to get out.

“True friends are those, when in their companies, who take you to a whole, new parallel universe.”

This was just the train journey, if I was to write up the whole day it would turn into a trilogy novel with a mix genre!

Look out for more snippets of our adventures soon!

Thank you for reading, feel free to share your full of crazy fun memories and moments in the comments below.